Ya Rabb! I cannot but express my thought
When in such web of love I am caught
They say everything is fair in love and war
Who gets what and where, this is from justice far
My dear one has made me in joy suffer
Is it called love when tears roll amidst laughter?
I question not Your Knowledge
Over what to her You did in dream divulge
I doubt not Your Justice
So quickly did You grant her sweet wish
Yet, may I ask You, my Merciful Rabb
Like her, do I not have any desire for Yathrib?
How many greetings have I eagerly sent?
How many sleepless nights in his desire I spent?
With eyes open and closed-
So many times has his love aroused…
And yet You showed me not even once
That Full Moon face who makes my soul dance
O my Kind Lord! I am really sad-
That You granted her a prayer I always had
Am I not a human creature-
Is envy not natural in love at such juncture?
And yet I swear, Ya Wadood-
I feel proud that I am held dear in such a heart
There is no love or pain sans Your Beloved
Seeing him is a fortune, longing for him brings pain
We ask for nothing more than his love
What else but it can make our hearts move?
The world of body puts us into sleep
The devil is digging the system’s hole deep
We circle around it for sake of bread
Until death it demands our sweat and blood
How after death can we show You our faces?
How little have we thanked You for these blessings?
At least allow us to endear Your Beloved
At least then we hope towards paradise to be led
Ya Rabb! I cannot but express my thought
When in such web of love I am caught
They say everything is fair in love and war
Who gets what and where, this is from justice far.
sallallahu ala Muhammad, sallallahu alaihi wa sallam!
April 18th 2004. After Isha prayer.
Notes
Full Moon : Holy prophet sallallahu alaihi wa sallam
Yathrib : The original name of Madina.
Ya Wadood : O Most Loving, one of the 99 names of Allah
