– Jaihoon

O My Allah!

All these years I trusted You,

And still do!

My dream will surely come true,

Although much pain I shall pass thru.

What a crazy heart have You given me

That it cannot separate a friend from an enemy!

The rain is no more,

Neither is left any joy in the garden

The Rose’s fallen to the ground,

Everywhere is silence like in a grave

The land is barren, the sky is dry

Ah! Why is the Nightingale still not convinced-

The Spring is over,

for ever!

O Allah! I trusted You,

And still do!

You are my only Merciful refuge

Everyone else has seen me with rage!

They can only see my worldly fault

And not the beauty of my spiritual heart.

I trusted You with every bead I read

I trusted You with every breath in Your Fear I took

I trusted You with every small deed

I trusted You with tear I shed

I trusted You when in secret I cried

I trusted You whenever I looked at the skies

I trusted You whenever I closed them when in prayer

I trusted You with my lines of rhyme and melody

I trusted You when Your Beloved I tirelessly greeted

I trusted You with all my trust

Although I myself is not worth of any faith

I trusted You with all your Beautiful Names

Allah! I still hold You most dear than any

Ah! Either change my Destiny or my own self!

July 18, 2003. Inspired after late Isha prayer at a Masjid in the town. The last two lines are based on a poem of Iqbal about Destiny.